Once Around...

Today was a day of laughing, crying and reunion. Grandparent's day at Providence High School is a day of events such as Mass in the morning, breakfast for the grandparents of the girls, and fellowship in the crammed, yet homey "Provet Cafe". But this year, I didn't get to attend this annual day of no classes, roaming the school with grandparents and friends, and then making their way to the gym for the grand finale of the variety show.

I made the decision just last night to attend the variety show, at least. I miss my Provet friends alot. I'm not going to explain my situation, why I don't go to Providence High School anymore. But I will say that I always feel at home when I'm on Providence property. Well anyway, as my dad dropped me off, I looked at the gym and I knew that I was home. The Providence High School variety show 2009 was filled with wonderful and exciting acts, funny and heartwarming acts, and I enjoyed every second. But it was the last act, the finale of the afternoon. The varsity basketball girls, all seniors, the girls I have come to know and love came on to the stage, with "Conga" by Gloria Estephan playing. They did a hilarious dance number to their normal basketball pre-game warm-up, dancing and shimying on the stage, drawing applause and whoops and laughter from the audience. Respect for the seniors, as well as genuine love and humor from the other PHS girls. Gosh, I felt the tear well up, it suprised me. With my sister next to me, I broke down. Seeing everything I knew and loved, my home, where my whole heart and soul is- moving on without me. Homesickness is really the only word I can use to describe my feelings at this point. Wow, to watch this from the outside looking in was just too much for me, so I went to the restroom to clean myself up. After the show, I met up with my best friend in the whole world, Kimberly. This reunion was met with more tears as i saw her in the crowd of girls and granparents. She ran and almost tackled me, our reunion was full of tears as she sobbed in my shoulder and told me that she missed me and called me an idiot. :D thats my Kimbo, my other half. Well, I'm glad i wen today and that I saw my freinds, and the most comforting thing, along with their welcoming embraces, was the knowledge that i would return. I will be back soon.

Dreams, Teens and Abilities

Last night I had a dream. The longest dream I've probably ever had, it covered my entire life from junior year until died. It's pretty freaky watching yourself die- i saw it all, but i woke up fine. No cold sweat no gasping. I was okay. But anyway, maybe i didn't freak out about me dying because i lived a pretty cool life.

Let me start at the beginning, my three friends and I were depressed that summer was over, junior year was about to begin. My new house had a massive backyard, and my friends Sweetie, David, Edward and I take a walk and discover a pond- too small to be called a pond really, but not big enough to call a lake. It spooked us a little that a large pond was just sitting in the middle of about 50 acres, and even more weird, the water was crystal blue- like Cancun or Bahamas blue. OK in dreams, I guess common sense doesn't rule or maybe we were just a couple of teenagers wanting to go for a dip...very badly; but either way we got in. The sand in the pond didn't cloud the water as it should have, but for some strange surreal reason we didn't get out or consider that that was the last bit strange. Well, the next morning, we woke up and find that each of us had strange abilities. I could hear people's thoughts. What they really meant when they said something. As the week went on, my friends and I discovered that our abilities fluctuated from week to week. It was pretty cool, needless to say and I'd rather not describe how I died. :/

I thought it would be a cool story idea. Maybe I could develop and concentrate on the characters, the four kids in my dream, and create a story to go with it. What do you think? :D

My Favorites in Pictures!

First Time in a Looong Time!

Today, Im deciding to give blogging a shot again. I haven't written anything of meaning to me in quite awhile. I miss it so much and maybe ill get back into the hang of it. Neutal Equilibrium is defined by answers.com as "A property of the steady state of a system which exhibits neither instability nor stability according to the particular criterion under consideration; a disturbance introduced into such an equilibrium will thus be neither amplified nor damped. Also known as indifferent equilibrium." Sounds like my current state of mind...in really complicated physics terms :D

Ok, first a little background info yours truly, I'm sixteen, I'm Italian-American, and I'm aspiring to become an author. I can picture myself ten years from now sitting in a bungalow in the pacific or a log cabin in the pacific northwest and just writing away on my laptop.
God is a big part of my life. He has given me life, reason to live and take each breath with much value. Im involved at my church, and I've made lifelong friends there.

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:1

Right now im listening to some of my favorite bands, The Scene Aesthetic, Iron & Wine, Lifehouse and Radiohead. I can't help but think that the song "Broken" by Lifehouse was made for me! Really, the part that goes "...I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain, there is healing, In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm barely holdin' on to you"
Wow, I cried when I first heard the chorus. Haha on that note, music is also a huge part of me. I live and breathe music. All kinds too, my taste has few limits. I enjoy mostly indie music (even though i hate that sterotypical name!it groups me into a cliche...i hate that) but Josh Groban, who's a genre all his own, is also one of my all-time favorite artists, along with Patsy Cline, Lifehouse, Chairlift and lotsss of others that i can't remember. Ok enough of me, I wont to get to posting! :D